Monday, August 02, 2010
i wonder if i could go back to those days days that i was just happy being myself
comfortable beneath my own skin
when even the smallest little things can render me happy
and the happiness that i exuded was genuine
somehow things aren't the same anymore
it's a boggling question
i guess as you get older, expectations tend to rise
which results in many people chasing after happiness
when in fact, happiness isn't that difficult to attain, isn't it?
it's an irony how people with everything they need always crave for more
look at the people of africa, or other poor undeveloped countries...
just playing soccer together would put a smile on their faces
a smile that is so priceless
and uncommon in the world we live in....
perhaps it all boils down to the fact that we are just to bothered by what other people think of us
worried about the things people might say behind our back
but that's just life
some bitch and get bitched about, others bitch about their friends all the time, and there's this group of people who just get bitched about even though they've not done anything
well... sometimes jealousy is what causes two best buddies to fall apart
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and once you've been betrayed/hurt by a "close" friend...
you'll feel skeptical about all friendships that you hold ...
which may be very damaging to your interpersonal skills ....
but i guess there's always this point of time that you'll realise
not everybody's the same
and that's the time when you move on with life.....
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school's starting on the 30th august
as much as i dread the school term
at the same time, i can't wait for school to start too
it's an irony isn't it?
i think my brain's always at a constant war with itself
much contradictions that can't be explained.....
1 month left. what shall i do?
hmmmm
♥signing off now♥
4:00 PM
4:00 PM
Sunday, June 13, 2010
i know i haven't been blogging at this blog for quite awhilebecause i've got a tumblr account
but somehow, there's always double line spacing for tumblr):
so maybe i'll just stick with blogger.
anyway i just feel like ranting about a certain someone
i've been putting up enough with all the nonsensical crap
to you: stop acting like a faggot and just move on with life
i know i shouldn't even be caring about somebody who doesn't give a damn about my feelings
but let me just say this once and for all.
i really don't think it was my fault to begin with
i already clarified earlier with you
afraid that you would get hurt if i allowed it to drag further
it was obvious, that i had wanted to maintain this friendship with you
if you can't tell that, then maybe something's really wrong with you
i did all i could to reduce the damage to its lowest level
i even checked with others to see if you were doing okay
constantly reminded myself that all you needed was time
but ironically, as time went by
it clearly proved that what i thought was the best solution failed me
your immaturity is hard to comprehend
i thought army would make you tougher both mentally and physically
maybe you're one of the exception
surely you know that this kind of things can't be forced upon
so how do you expect me to respond then
firstly , you didn't even tell me anything
secondly, it's not as if i avoided you after knowing that you ....**
i really do not know what's on your mind
but isolating yourself from the world may be one of your regrets later in life
i mean, the world hasn't been treating you that badly
to tell you the truth, i don't think i mistreated you or anything of that sort too.
so what the hell is wrong with you?
why the hell are you avoiding me when all i wanted was to be friends with you once again?
i shouldn't be putting any thought into this friendship
or should i say PAST friendship anymore
since you don't even give a damn
why should i?
this is the last time that i'm going to care
our friendship is ruined and it can't be saved anymore
thanks to your immaturity
seriously, no one can help you if you choose to isolate yourself from the world.
if you don't change your angle of perspective in life
all i can say that, you're just putting yourself at a pure disadvantage
so get a life and move on.
if not, you only have yourself to blame for the current state you are in.
to that person
i don't think you'll be reading this.
but i do hope you can be like what you used to be in the past
wallowing in self-pity doesn't solve any problem but instead, it just makes you feel miserable.
so why choose to be that way?
♥signing off now♥
8:14 PM
8:14 PM
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
i'm still alive from the studying(:!
decided to come back to post an entry
might be moving back to blogger after all
since i have no idea how to put songs and a tagboard on my tumblr account
will try figuring out after exams
plus it's kinda irritating since my tumblr posts always have double spacing between sentences
hmmm. i really wonder
okay.
back to mundane studying!
JIAYOU! YOU CAN DO IT !
good luck to everybody else out.
holidays holidays holidays holidays.
come quick!
♥signing off now♥
4:44 PM
4:44 PM
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
moved to babyviolets.tumblrbut still this site will be preserved
lots of precious memories
♥signing off now♥
12:41 AM
12:41 AM
Sunday, March 14, 2010
happiness comes from the simplest things
a smile
a good laugh
an encouragement
a hug
a silly comment
a simple satisfying meal
most importantly,
surrounded by people
who care and love you
paying attention to your every need
(:
so when you're feeling down or upset
just think of the happy times
and you'll see light at the end of the dark tunnel
p.s. back to my tutorial
no lab tomorrow again
which means spending 3 hours traveling for a 2 hour lecture! :/
♥signing off now♥
10:35 PM
10:35 PM
Monday, March 08, 2010
just with a little attention given, could made us so contented.
when we were in primary school
purchasing items from the bookstore could lift our spirits
or even a simple packet of seaweed could make us happy
when we were in secondary school
nothing beats going out for window-shopping
and purchasing perlini's silver was our greatest joy
when we were in junior college
a close-knitted class, a group of close friends
was all it took for us to endure through the 2 years
2 years that we thought was so hard to get past at that point of time
and from time to time
these group of friends were the ones that made jc life
so much better and enjoyable
sometimes it's just nice to walk down the memory lane
to retrieve the old memories that brought us so much happiness back then.
not saying that i'm not contented with what i have now
it's just that,
i think it's so much easier to find self-contentment in the past...
when happiness comes from the heart instead of material comforts
that's when you know that you are truly comfortable with
being yourself
(: being sad is not an option
being happy is (:
live life. love life.
♥signing off now♥
12:25 AM
12:25 AM
Thursday, March 04, 2010
the weather is really insane
and it's making me very irritable!
:/
i want a cooler climate now
now now now
urghhhhh
back to my notes....
4 more days before mommy returns :D
p.s. i'm happy with my eyebrows (=
no more "one piece" HAHAHAS
♥signing off now♥
10:07 PM
10:07 PM
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